Shh, Catch on to those Quiet Blessings

Posted on 2013/02/18 by

Sometimes things can be explained with reasoning and logic and sometimes they just don’t make sense at all – it just is.

I’ve been pretty blah this past week, a lot on my shoulder. I had my cheerful moments but overall I started to drag. After work I would just crash. Everything I said I was going to accomplish was pushed to the side. Thankfully, my weekend started to turn around and I can’t complain anymore about how miserable and homesick I’ve been.

My friend baked me a cake on Saturday just because I wanted some cake and ice cream.  Another one drove me to buy ice cream, even though it was literally a two minute walk. Yesterday was my brother’s birthday (the one who passed away). And shortly after talking to my best friend about the sadness and yearning in my heart for him, one of my AO co-worker show up and surprised me with an Oreo McFlurry. He bought it for me since, “I love ice cream like a kindergarten.” That made my night. I may have loss one brother but I have gained so many through the military. I continue to feel like one of those beloved Princesses, famous in fairy tales, or like I’m on top of the world and nothing can stop me.

I’ve noticed a pattern in my life; the right person always happened to show up right when I needed it the most. How can I not be thankful for the people I have? I grow stronger each time, not because I was born with a strong heart, but because I have some of the greatest and most faithful people in my life. Plus, a GOD who knows when to send those people in times of comfort and need. I may be a super joyful person; but, even so, I can get pretty sad. We all should.

Losing is a part of life but gaining is the countermeasure we can miss out on. Sometimes we stare so hard and long at what we have loved and loss we end up missing the gain aspect we’ve been blessed with. Learn to count those quiet blessings but also learn to enjoy them while you have them.

-meéxio

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Newton’s First Law of Motion

Posted on 2012/11/20 by

An object at rest stays at rest and an object in motion stays in motion with the same speed and in the same direction UNLESS acted upon by an unbalanced force.

I had to stand post from 2330, on Saturday, to 0730 on Sunday – an 8 hour watch. I slept until almost 1500 on Sunday. It was my duty weekend. Day 1 was changing the way I eat while Day 2 ended up being a relaxing day. No worries, Day 3 and 4 marked my return to Insanity! H-E-L-L-O!

I have been utilizing my two hour lunch break in between class to get my Insanity workout in. So far, it’s been working out. I’m still working on eating more fruits and vegetables. Lately, I have been taking two dosages of my vitamins. I’m not too worry about lacking in vitamins but I do want to eat more food.

The hardest thing about starting…IS STARTING. It’ where you do A LOT of trial and error stuff. What works and what doesn’t? I’ve been into health and fitness for the longest time and I’m still chucking things out of the window and welcoming new ideas. It can get discouraging at first, because nothing seems to go right or feels right, but hang on my friends! Results are so worth it.

Deciding to do something about your lifestyle and health can be life changing if it’s super, duper, uber important to you. I have always believe that when something is important to you, you are more willing to fight for it at no cost. All you have to do now is stick to that important decision of yours for a better you and a healthier lifestyle.

An object in motion stays in motion unless acted upon by an unbalanced force. Let me repeat that second part again, “unless acted upon by an unbalanced force.” You’re going to start to slow down and eventually come to a rest when you start making excuses and devaluing the importance in your decision. I’ve been there many, many times. Don’t let yourself get to the point where it was perfectly fine to skip a day of working out, which turned into a week, then a month and soon a year has passed. Don’t cheat yourself.

What drives me to get back on track is ME. To elaborate it for you, I’m doing it for me. I want to live my life a certain way feeling good about myself. I have a lot of things I still want to be able to do. I love to conquer pain and weakness. I know I can do it and the only one who is capable of stopping me is ME and that’s why I need to do it. I’m not perfect; I get side tracked A LOT. But you are at rest only if you choose to remain that way and choose to not take any course of action. I don’t like seeing people strive and thrive while I’m in the same old place…making no progress, going around in circles. It burns me <— I’m competitive like that.

With that said, I look forward to conquering Insanity. I’m sure I will have to change my schedule a lot (it’s harder to maintain a daily schedule in the Navy) but I am choosing to fight for what I want. If you need to take a break or something comes up, let it be, please do what you need to do, take care of business and don’t feel bad. Life happens when we least expect it but be flexible, be willing to accommodate yourself and others when necessary.

Stay in motion.

-meéxio

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Start by Doing 1

Posted on 2012/11/19 by

2012 Brief: I left for boot camp March 12 and graduated May 04, arrived in Pensacola, FL May 06, graduated A-school July 10, found out I was dropped from my orders to Japan July 27, evacuated to Albany, GA at the end of August because of Hurricane Isaac, was up for the advancement exam to make E-4 Sep. 19, finally received my hard copies and checked out of Pensacola Oct. 05, went home for a good week and a half, checked into Oak Harbor, WA Oct. 16, aced my first Physical Readiness Test (PRT) Nov. 07, currently in C-school, will be graduating around Dec. 13 and and reporting to my squadron Dec. 17, with an option of taking leave Dec. 28-Jan. 14. What a year! And that doesn’t even include all the details in between…

>>How was 2012 for you? How will you end it?<<

I have been slacking off (this is the details in between) since I ran my PRT. I ended up being excused for our command PT (physical training) that whole week and this week, due to other events. Oh, and I finally purchased wi-fi so I never leave my room anymore and was staying up late watching Queen In Hyun’s Man, a Korean drama. Tsk, tsk, tsk. I finally got back on track because I received my Aviation Ordnanceman book and my vitamins and shakes.

My goals for the remaining 45 days:

  1. Shed 10 pounds before the year ends. I have numbers to beat: 69 sit-ups, 25 push ups and 13:49 for my 1.5 mile run, for someone who is 24. The PRT comes every 6 months. I’ll be 25 in January which means my requirements for the PRT will be less. However, I’m not letting age be a reason for doing little or bare minimum. Not this girl! Nuh-uh!
  2. Finish my AO course and score some points for completing it (which will help me for my next evaluation=good for promotion).
  3. Pay off the last $400 on my credit card. Less debt=more money to save for trips to Europe and Japan!

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I only have 3 goals and they are 3 tough ones. I’m a tough girl. There hasn’t been anything I couldn’t do when I put my mind to it. Will power is a beautiful thing. Wouldn’t you agree? Whatever your goals are for 2013, why not start now? Most of us, including me, tend to make the mistake of waiting for the new year to start for a “fresh new beginning” when, really, we can start today. What are we waiting for? Good question.

Learn to take it 1 day at a time. I still am. When we learn to do it one-by-one, we can look back at the end of the year and know we did all that we wanted plus more! We wouldn’t be making New Year’s resolution and kicking rocks because we failed within a month. Let’s be a success story each and every day. Yes, think long term, but also focus on today to build up for tomorrow to reach that long-term goal of yours. You must be willing to constantly put up a fight.

We have from Nov. 17 – Dec. 31, 2012, that’s exactly 45 days left!

Get your sword, your helmet, your whole outer garment and no-pain-no-gain spirit. Leave your whining, your complaining and moaning behind. I don’t want to hear it. Game on. Are you ready for  my 45 Days of Victory challenge?

-meéxio

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Motivation Stuck on Me

Posted on 2012/11/04 by

Typically I don’t repost another post from another blog but I felt this one was worth resharing.

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For slacking off, I did my Insanity workout, some 67 sit-ups and headed outside for what turned out to be one of the highlights of my morning. I’m already starting out my week with awesomeness! How about you? No regrets over here.

Ok, to stop the suspense, here’s what happened: I was already pumped up due to Insanity and listening to Hindi music, on Pandora, while walking towards the gym. I was bobbing to the music; it felt like I had swag. To top it off, I was wearing my boxing shirt from the MMA Academy I had joined before bootcamp. Now I was walking around, smiling, dancing and feeling like a boss. Haha (I live in my own little world). Originally, I was heading out to find the 1.5 mile trail I will be running for my PRT (another Navy abbreviation for Physical Readiness Test) this coming Wednesday. Well, I didn’t know where it was. Plus, I didn’t have my glasses. I know, I know, but no biggie. I ended up stumbling by this big sign that map out the Seaview Trail. Ok, why not? Might as well do something since I’m already this far out, and wow there was no turning back.

I’m talking about life changing! The view was of the ocean (or is it sea?) extending out to mountains with birds flying around. GORGEOUS! But it doesn’t stop there. As I walked further into the trail, I discovered a camping site for trailers and RVs and, what I call, “joy messages.” The trail also contained little “inspiration posts.” I’m an artsy type; therefore, for me, it was super motivating! After the campsite, you can take a nature trail into the forest or down to the beach; I stuck on the trail. Once I entered where all the trees began to surround another mini bridge, I lost my mind. It literally felt like time froze and I was the most blessed person on Earth. The world was in my hand yet I felt so small compared to it – if that makes any sense. I absolutely LOVE nature!!!! Awe struck! I can’t get working out out of my system just like I can’t get this trail out of my system – this is me bragging about both. I’m definitely bringing my camera next time! Thankfully, I had my iPhone.

Here are some shots below put together for those lacking in motivation when it comes to health and fitness. Don’t be afraid to go out and explore (and click on the picture to enlarge to view the little messages – I  gaurantee a smile)!!! *goes crazy* Life is full of surprises and you will never know what you’ll find along the way unless you make a decision, with work, to change your ways, attitude and mentality. Enjoy my friends and happy workout!

-meéxio

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Woman in Uniform

Posted on 2012/11/03 by
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I absolutely love our utilities uniform (a.k.a. coveralls). I just find them so sexy! Just had to do a photo shoot. Oh, and that is my camera. On the left, I used a lightning effect while the right was a … Continue reading →

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POEM: Our Little Secret

Posted on 2012/11/02 by

Come a little closer.
We’ll take it nice and slow.
I’m breaking down my walls, piece by piece.
Only for you am I making it easy.
We’ll take it from where we left off;
I’m here to ride with you.
And I’ll tell you a little more of me,
show you who I’ve grown to be.

I won’t ask for too much.
I won’t desire more;
It’s just you I’m asking of.
And if you want to go a little deeper,
a little crazier,
I’m waiting, ready to give you my hands.
We can go worldwide.
I’m you’re Queen, be my King.
We can go once and back,
just take control, I’m feeling you.
We can go between the sheets,
With silk spread beneath.

It’ll just be between you and I;
The way you come on over,
the slyness you’re smirking to,
the fantasies you’re whispering for.
I’ll uttered your name,
make some noises.

You can shh me up,
and be my prerogative.

-meéxio

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POEM: Mistaken

Posted on 2012/10/27 by

A friend has been reading, analyzing and coming to understand the meaning behind my two previous poems, Another Love Story and Love Me Sweetly and added, “I feel a trilogy.” So here it is…

Mistaken

Maybe my mind mastered masquerader,
and my mumbling mislead my mouth.
Maybe my might misinformed my muscles,
and my molding mocked masterpieces.

You folded.
I was being merciless.

Maybe I’m stuck somewhere slippery,
and my steps were slowly sagging.
Maybe some stipulations surrendered,
and submitted to the seventh day of slumber.

You moved on.
I was still speculating.

Maybe my wits woke up,
and my wishing well withered.
Maybe my will won the world,
and my weaknesses weakened.

But before you claim your chips,
do witness my hand;
A flush…not just any type -
My kind of a Royal Flush.

Don’t be mistaken.
I make the calls of ME.

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Mistaken, not only touches on the struggles and risks of being in love, falling in love and loving that certain someone, but the struggles we face with loving ourselves and being acknowledged and accepted by others. I constantly seek to be accepted for who I am and have a sense of love and belonging, whether it’s a significant other or within my family and circle of friends.

I played poker a lot with my siblings when we were younger. We loved the thrill of gambling and the art of it. Who is putting up a show and who really is the show? Should I fold or should I make the call and go big by raising a quarter (yeah, we were poor kids)? I had to be confident and a risk taker. It’s all part of the game.

You play by the rules and sometimes you make your own. How you were raised may say something about you. Your values and morals may determine if you are a good person or not. Whatever it is, don’t lose yourself. Everything and everyone that you have encountered may or may not shape who you become, what you think, value and believe, and how you feel about yourself. Ultimately, you define YOU. Yes, even if so and so claims he/she knows you extremely well from head to toes and swears by it. No one will know you better than yourself. Have some faith and confidence.

We can find ourselves compromising or changing what already makes us great to something someone else believes is great. We convince ourselves that if we become this or that we will have more wins. Unfortunately, at one point I was good at doing just that. I promised to strive and excel and aimed to conquer. At the end, I had all that I wanted and was all that I worked to become. Well…minus him. Ok, so I used bitterness and jealously as motivation, not always a good thing.

Like me, you may have gotten caught up in pleasing others while finding yourself slip away. The purpose of alliteration in this particular poem was to represent how vicious things can be in life, a repetitive cycle, what can be an endless and hopeless case. Regardless of how strong we hold on, eventually we will have to fold. Some things are not meant to be. One door will need to close so a better one can open, and at times we need to close that door.

Aim to be the Royal Flush, the best of you! You’ll get the King/Queen you have been looking for. I know, I know…that’s 4 out of 52 cards. Just impossible! FYI, Royal Flushes do exist. Have some faith and confidence. That’s just me.

As for love stories, the past will always be memories, the good and bad. This is goodbye to those hopeful feelings for him and a hello to the next chapter in my life.

-meéxio

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